I have entered the Twilight Zone!!!

It's so hard saying goodbye to someone that was very influential in your life. I still cannot believe that my grandfather has passed away I feel like I'm in the twilight zone.. I'm so angry and disappointed at my mom and aunt they never came to my grandfathers burial. How could they do this??? That was so disrespectful of them!!! I just don't understand this!!! Are they that incredible selfish??? It's not right, I makes me realize that my mom has never grown up, they took this moment of saying goodbye to her father and made it about them. I've been trying to call her to see if she's alright but I think she's been trying to avoid me. I don't know maybe she's mad at me because she's not getting a full 20%. My grandfather raised me like one of their own kids and left me a third and my mom has 14.4 %. All of the other children have 20%. All of this is so overwhelming to me, I feel like a state of shock, Ive been poor all my life and now I can do all of the things I always wanted to do. Of course when the government takes half of my trust gotta love those blood sucking leaches!!! I have to make sure I have less than 10,000 in the bank because if you do not the bank will report it to the IRS and if you leave it at home they say its hording money fucking greedy, gold digging assholes!!! I want to own my own house, unfortunately the only way I am going to get the house of my dreams is to pay off my debts. This is going to court and I could take months or even years till I get my inheritance. I'd rather have my grandparents back then have this money. I miss them very much...